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Friday, March 30, 2012

That lamp That Needs No Oil

I have made the journey into Nothing.
I have lit that lamp that
Needs no oil.

I have cried great streams
Of emerald crystals 
On my scarred knees, begging love

To never again let me hear from
Any world

The sound of my own name,
Even from the voice of divine thought

Or see that pen you gave me God,
In the sun's or sky's skillful hand
Anything other than the word-

I have made the journey to Nothing.
I have become that flame that needs
No fuel.

Now what need is there to ever
Call for Hafiz?

For if you did,
I would just step out
of You.
-Hafiz (translated by Daniel Ladinsky)

I Wish I Could Show You

I wish I could show you,
When you are lonely or in darkness,
The Astonishing Light
Of your own Being!

Thursday, March 29, 2012


First blossoms, just beginning, staying open and allowing.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Today I recognized that that jewel-like beauty is the presence.
Looking back as I look forward, but still standing in the present. No wondering what is to be. Continuing to have complete trust (I could also call it faith) in listening to my heart. Feeling at home with curiosity and wonder. It is all such a blessing.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

We Are Mirror...Heart & Mind

We are the mirror as well as the face in it.
We are tasting the taste this minute
of eternity. We are pain and what cures pain. We are the sweet, cold water and the jar that pours. - Rumi

All things continue to shift and change; of course it's mostly on the inside that I'm experiencing it. I remain in the cocoon, the phoenix is not quite ready to emerge from the flames. More birthing and burning is required. It doesn't hurt, really. I find myself in a constant state of curiosity. I find myself, allowing myself, each moment, to shift, to change, to roll things around in my mind. Most importantly, my goal is to listen to my heart and her needs; is this right for me...take away any fear based thoughts...is this really what I want to be doing right now with my  time...with my life? This is my life now; all heart - no separation or distinction between heart and mind - chitti- all is one.

Friday, March 23, 2012

A Day of Receiving

And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. ~ Anais Nin

A blossoming has indeed occurred. Another week has found it's Friday. I have landed myself a part-time job at our animal shelter, walking dogs who have just come into the system. Service, compassion and love to these sentient beings; an opportunity to be where I am needed and appreciated. Found a new sweet home to move into next month with a big back yard for Lucy and squooshy carpeting under our toes...this will be a nice delight for our soles! Patience has found a home in my heart.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

New Moon in Spring and Pooh's Wisdom


“"Well," said Pooh, "what I like best -- " and then he had to stop and think. Because although Eating Honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn't know what it was called”.

This is today. Blue skies, new moon, further outreaching rays of opening to the unknown and a wider sense of consciousness. I think Pooh's quote is a perfect example of present moment mindfulness. It's not only appreciating or savoring something once you've gotten it but all the moments leading up to it, each and every step; each and every breath.

Everybody is the Guest

Everybody is the Guest

Saturday, March 17, 2012

A Hidden Treasure

Let yourself be silently drawn
by the stronger pull
of what you really love.

Do you see her? Just to the right of the purple buds? I bent down to take a picture of those brave crocus's that are the first to arrive before Spring actually arrives. Just as I was getting ready to take the picture my eye caught an ever-so-slight movement; a folded baby monarch. I took one picture, got up and walked away but she called me back and there she was still sitting, folded, resting, breathing. She was reminding me of the beautiful transition that occurs from caterpillar to butterfly. Not yet ready to fly, taking my time and breathing.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Giving the Heart Some Time

All the Hemispheres
Leave the familiar for a while.
Let your senses and bodies stretch out.
Like a welcomed season
Onto the meadows and shores and hills.

Open up to the Roof.
Make a new watermark on your excitement
And love.

Like a blooming nightflower,
Bestow your vital fragrance of happiness
And giving
Upon our intimate assembly.

Change rooms in your mind for a day.

All the hemispheres in existence
Lie beside an equator
In your heart.

Greet Yourself
In your thousand other forms
As you mount the hidden tide and travel
Back home.

All the hemispheres in heaven
Are sitting around a fire
While stitching themselves together
Into the Great Circle inside of

~From “The Subject Tonight is Love”, 60 Wild & Sweet Poems”, by Hafiz; Translated by Daniel Ladinsky.
Hafiz was a great poet/saint in the same tradition as Rumi, of the Sufi faith, from the land that what was once named Persia.

Listened to my heart; had to pay attention and trust that this free fall would not     result in a crash. It’s interesting to feel like you have a safety net when in fact there simply is no ground to crash into. 

I’ve left my job behind and I’m now wandering in the valley of the present moment; gave myself “permission” to simply be and allow the heart some time to heal and take rest. There’s no push or shove in my days. The only one pushing me is me. Oh…the day is mine to do with as I feel. Such an inner freedom I don’t remember feeling this deeply before. Historically, always an agenda, a plan, or I should say a plan within the guise of being in the present moment and spontaneous!

What I really wish to share is simply that when you follow the heart, you are truly rewarded by a bliss of newness and profound intimacy with the present moment. I don’t know how long this time will last so I have requested myself to be as fully in the now as I can, not squander the moments and take the time to feel the grandeur of love that exists in every moment.

Cross posted over at Vision & Verb, http://www.visionandverb.com/
for Thursday, March 15, 2012

Friday, March 9, 2012

Choices & Unattached Waiting

Today I am quiet inside. Doing my best to simply let...everything...be. No pushing...anything...what I'm going to do in the next moment, what kind of job I'm going to get, what kind of home we're going to live in. Today is a think free, no choosing, just being day.

There is a divination tool called "Runes"; an ancient Viking oracle brought down through the ages. A set of 25 symbols engraved in stones with spiritual/psychological/emotional interpretations for guidance in one's life. Today I chose the rune, Raido, interpreted as: journey, communication, union, reunion. The oracle speaks about "...not intent on movement, be content to wait; while you wait, keep on removing resistances. As the obstructions give way, all remorse arising from trying to make things happen disappears. 
(The Book of Runes, Ralph H. Blum)

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Untold, Unknown Possibilities

"When mindfulness is there you are attentive to yourself, you are attentive to other people around you and understanding becomes possible, compassion becomes possible."  

“We have more possibilities available in each moment than we realize.”  Thich Nhat Hanh

A new dimension...that's what it feels like now that my daily routine of 6 years has changed. One of the best parts of changing the routine includes not having anxiety about going to a job that was an unhealthy work environment (for me). I have no intention of dwelling on the past; suffice to say, it wasn't a good place for me to be on many levels and after months of processing, I finally said, "enough".

What's exciting is that everything feels in the realm of possibility. Oh, I know, these are crazy economic times but truly, my heart and soul were in jeopardy of implosion.

So, the good news....I'm giving myself a full week to not have an agenda and just do what I love the most; write, make images, walk Lucy, love my man and support my teenager who's doing a bit of wandering himself these days. I'm experimenting with being in the present moment; it feels different somehow, to be mindful about each moment when the day is all mine - no schedule - just whatever is in front of me. These practices seem to have new meaning during this time of transition and growth. It's all good and it's all perfect! And as Thay says, there are infinite possibilities!


Bending Branch


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Buddha Applied

Buddha Applied

A Moment in Time

A Moment in Time

Silence Series

Silence Series

Silence Series

Silence Series

Street Photography

Street Photography

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Faces From the World

Faces From the World


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