It's always a surprise to me when I find that I am depressed or sad or melancholy or lonely.
I'm usually quite the happy one/positive one/supportive one. But as I get older I find these states of mind showing up more often.
It's even more peculiar when I can feel sad/lonely/raw; when I encounter another (my partner, my son, my boss/co-workers) I find that my brain immediately switches to being "ON". I unconsciously/consciously, willingly leave that state of emotion and get on to the present moment of interaction.
Is this a healthy response? I choose to say nothing (most of the time) because I don't want to be a martyr, don't want to seem negative/cranky/complaining. (You've got so much to be grateful for, for god's sake).
And if I'm feeling a certain way because a thought/emotion/feeling has come up in regards to another, I tend to take responsibility and say, "Well, if I'm feeling this way, then surely this is what I must need in order to grow in this moment."
That is Why
That is why I keep the mouth shut/move on. Am I discounting my feelings? It's hard to say because I also watch as I can immediately turn on a dime from feelings of loneliness and separateness to laughter and joy. If my feelings/emotions/moods can shift so rapidly, then I don't even wish to spend time with the negativity.
Just Move On
I prefer to simply move on.