At the end of the day, do I say this thing is between me and God? What does that mean? Uncovering the experience that there is no God. There is no supreme being who bestows his or her magic wand upon my ignorance and grants me understanding. But take heart! When I say there is no God it is simply the word. This word. God.
1. Cap : the supreme reality; esp : the Being worshipped as the creator and ruler of the universe. 2 : a being or object believed to have supernatural attributes and powers and to require worship 3 : a thing of supreme value 4 : an extraordinarily attractive person.
Much deep inquiry and contemplation is showing me that this Creator and ruler of the universe, a higher power, this something greater than myself, in fact includes me, is part of me, which makes me part of it too. Buddhism teaches emptiness; dependent origination. Nothing exists in isolation independent of other life. This is NOT Nihilism! Thich Nhat Hanh calls it interbeing. The entirety of all that is, is eternal, was never born and will never die. No creator. No beginning. This is the ineffable. This feeling is so vast and huge and beyond comprehension and may include something which could be described as god but in fact goes beyond and to infinity.
Emptiness in fact invites and includes all limitless possibility. We are all inextricably connected. What I do effects everyone else and vice versa. Chaos theory. The butterfly effect. The divine nature of all things. Awe. It is all true. Just look in your heart. Just look up at the sky. The dark and the light join hands, are one and walk together.